New Blog

I'm sorry for those of you who followed this blog, I got to the point where I just didn't feel like I had anything I really wanted to say and If I did I wasn't ready for everyone to hear it. After about 2 years, a lot of thinking and going back and forth in my head, I decided to start another blog. This new blog is focused primarily on our struggle to have a baby but occasionally I'll just post whatever. I want to invite any of you to come join me over at my new blog, where I promise to update regularly. I wasn't sure I was ready for people to know all this about us, but one thing I've realized when you struggle with infertility is basically you become an open book at least for all the doctors you see:) I'm okay with this in fact now I'm very open with people who want to know about our story. I think it's good to spread awareness about infertility and my hope is that maybe I can help someone who might be suffering also but in silence realize it's good to have someone to talk to about this stuff! My new blog address is http://www.tryingtocompleteourfamily.blogspot.com. One thing I must say is that if you decide to read my new blog and you want to leave a comment, please if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all! Yes I know I'm young and I've got all the time in the world yadda yadda yadda, but if you yourself haven't gone through infertility you have no idea how it is and you can't possibly understand. If you have nice things to say by all means comment all you want. Like I said earlier I'm very open so feel free to ask me anything and last but not least you've been warned so sometimes I might get very personal, because let's face it infertility is about as personal as it gets!!

Seeking Help!

I've been debating for awhile If I wanted to post about this topic, but since this is what's been going on in our lives I decided I should.

James and I have officially been married for one year, which I didn't even write about so I guess I should say something about that first. We didn't end up doing a whole lot because I wasn't feeling that good so we just went out to dinner at Texas Roadhouse and then came home. We were going to go to a movie but my parents had a pipe break in our front yard, so James helped my brother in-law take care of that.

Anyways so back to what I originally was going to write about, since we have been married for a year and we've been trying to have a baby for that long and nothing's happened, we decided it was time to seek help. So first was my appointment at the OBGYN's which went really good considering what we there for. I had my first pap smear which I definitely didn't enjoy but honestly who does? I was very hesitant to go to this doctor because I didn't know of anyone who had been to him, but I'm really glad I found him because I really like him. He prescribed Clomid to me, which is what all doctor's start with I've been told, but at the same time he told me to schedule an HSG to check if my fallopian tubes were blocked. I had this test today and I'm not going to lie it's definitely not painless, it wasn't the worst thing in the world but I had some seriously horrible cramps for most of the day:( Thank goodness I got the good news that nothing's wrong and my tubes are wide open! Now we seek help for James.

James had his first appointment about a week ago and that went pretty good, we really like his doctor also and he's already got a plan in place! James was told he needed to have an ultrasound the next day(I'm not going to go into any details here, but let's just say there is something wrong with him), that came and went and about a week later we got the results.....James needs surgery which they say should take care of our problems. His surgery is in two weeks and I'll update after that. My doctor wants me to take clomid for three months and then if nothing he said we'll talk about our other options. I'm not thinking anything else will be necessary because between my test(which is supposed to make you really fertile) and James' surgery(which will take care of our big problem) I think I could possibly be pregnant within the next few months.

Although we weren't given the good news that not a thing was wrong with either of us and it will just happen when it's the right time, I'm just relieved to know what's wrong and that it can be resolved rather easily! I'm not so worried about trying to get pregnant anymore, after James gets surgery I think we'll just wait and see what happens, because I definitely don't want to go back to the hospital for anymore tests anytime soon:) Sorry this is such a long post it's just that I've waited awhile to post anything because I didn't know what I wanted to say, so now there's so much to say.

The other thing that's happened in the last couple weeks is that James got a raise, not only is he going to be making an hourly wage but now he'll be receiving commission for the cars he does full details, paint protectors, or undercoats on. This is going to help us extremely because he'll be making much more than he does now and we can possibly move out again! Well that's about all and this post is already too long so I'll try to write more often.

It's been so long

I just noticed how long it's been since I've posted anything, and quite a bit of things have happened in our life, so I thought I should give an update!

First we no longer are living in our apartment, we moved back in with my parents. There are a few different reasons, one being that James got a new job and they offer health insurance but it costs an arm and a leg for it. Moving back was the last thing I wanted to do, but it actually hasn't been that bad. My sister and her family moved out about a month ago so the house isn't so crowded, and for some odd reason my mom and I are actually getting along. We aren't downstairs anymore so we have two bedrooms upstairs we can use, and we were finally able to get a really nice bedroom set. I haven't had a nice bed for as long as I can remember I've been sleeping on a futon:( Our bed is so comfortable I don't want to get up in the morning and sometimes I find myself falling asleep as early as 8 because I'm so relaxed!

Another thing that's happened is James got a new job, which he absolutely loves! He's working at Murdock Hyundai as a Lot Attendant, basically he details cars, shuttles customers, and whatever else needs to be done. He loves to do anything that has to do with cars, and in fact he hopes to someday be a mechanic for Hyundai. His boss tells him how much he likes him and how good of a job he's doing quite often and James just really likes this job, which makes me so happy. The best part about this job is we get health insurance, although it's really expensive, it's definitely worth it. The other bonus is we've been able to get work done on our car because the head mechanic use to work for Mitsubishi, they didn't even charge us for our brakes:) I love being married to someone who knows a lot about cars because James can do much of the labor by himself, which saves us a lot of money!

A couple weekends ago my family took a trip to Yellowstone, which was a lot of fun! James had never been there and he really enjoyed it. We saw a buffalo in the middle of the road, elk throughout the park and my nephew also spotted a wolf amongst the trees. Old Faithful was also really cool, I've been there before but since James hadn't he expected a lot more from it and after it went off he said "Is that all?" He cracks me up! On our way home from yellowstone we stopped at Bear World, now that was cool. My niece and nephew just loved it because they had never been there and my nephew absolutely loves bears! We didn't have any crazy stories to tell like some people who have had bears climb on their cars or in the back of their truck, but in a way i'm glad that wasn't our story:)

Well that's about all that's been going on i'll try to post more often!

I just need to vent!!

It seems like ever since we've moved into our own place we've had one problem after another, and I'm fed up with it. First it was our fridge, one night we realized it wasn't keeping any of our food cold and ended up having to throw away EVERYTHING, which was quite a bit of food. Luckily it was fixed the next day and it's been fine since then. In order to fix the fridge we had to completely defrost our freezer, in the process losing all the food that was in our freezer too:( By this time I was pretty upset because we had wasted tons of food and money, in my opinion it was just like throwing money down the toilet! The problems didn't stop there, next we noticed that my car is making some really loud grinding/squeaking/rattling noise, and we can't drive it now. My brother in-law thinks that my brakes need to be replaced, my alignment needs to be straightened and one of my tires is bald due to the alignment. I'm seriously so fed up with car/fridge problems it seems like they never end. To make matters worse my car is due for inspection this month and I'm sure it won't pass because of all the problems, and we definitely don't have enough money to fix it right now. My parents have been really good to let us borrow their cars and my sister has been shuttling us around lately, but still I'm just ready for things to stop breaking and start working properly. The good thing is we live right across the street from a grocery store and many things are within walking distance from our house, so a car isn't exactly necessary right now. Just when you thought I was going to stop there nope I've got more frustrations, we've been married now for nine months which means we've been trying to have a baby for nine months and still NOTHING! I'm hoping now that we have our own place and our situation is better money-wise that it will happen soon, but I'm not going to hold my breath. Our anniversary is just a little over 2 months away and if I'm not pregnant by then I'll make an appt. with a doctor, but still i'm getting discouraged. People have been giving me a lot of grief about wanting a baby so young and so soon after getting married, but they don't understand that it's mine and James' decision when and no one else's. I read in a book about getting pregnant something that sums up my feelings exactly, it said your concern is welcome, but your advice and comments are not. Well that's about all for now, hopefully next time I'll be able to write about something a little more uplifting:)

Moving!!!

I just wanted to update and let everyone know that we got the apartment and we're moving out tomorrow! I'm so excited I just can't believe it's finally happening, I've been waiting for this for 8 months now. This apartment has everything we've been looking for in an apartment. It has a playground, swimming pool, gym, pool table, basketball court, and even a redbox so we don't even have to leave our apartment to rent a movie. It truly is amazing, at first I told James I wouldn't move into an apartment that didn't include a washer and dryer in every apartment because I don't like laundry facilities, but this one is awesome and I don't mind it at all. The last few months it seems like we've been tested over and over again with everything, and I can finally say that things are starting to look up for us. We're so excited to finally have a place of our own and especially our own ward, don't get me wrong I love the people in my family ward but I grew up in this ward and I want a fresh start where nobody knows our age or anything about us. Sometimes I've felt like I was judged by people in my ward because I got married young, so I think it will be nice to go there knowing nobody and to finally be the "new" people in a ward:)Well I better get back to packing, I'll post some pictures once we get everything all put together.

Easter weekend and I'm sick:(

Friday I was able to get together with my friend Sarah which was a lot of fun, I always enjoy spending time with her! That night my family went out to dinner to celerbrate James' birthday a little early since his actual birthday is today. We went to this wonderful restaurant out in Bountiful, I know kind of far but it's totally worth it. I loved the food and we all had a great time, but as soon as I got home my stomach started to hurt. At first I thought it was nothing because for the past week every night when I get ready for bed I feel like I'm going to throw up but then I just fall asleep. Well this turned into a full-on stomachache that would not go away at all and I knew I had caught the stomach flu:( Let's just say I got very little sleep that night and that's a night I want to forget!

Saturday I woke up still feeling quite nauseous and to my surprise found my little niece felt the same way. I felt so bad for Natalie because it's bad enough when an adult is sick, but when it's a child and they're really so helpless it's just so sad. She was a trooper and got through it with flying colors, she didn't complain or cry at all. Since I was so sick yesterday I just stayed home all day, sleeping most of the time. Natalie and I watched a few movies together since we were both stuck home, first it was Enchanted which I'd never seen but I thought it was super cute! Then we watched Look Who's Talking, that movie is a classic to me. And last was Sleeping Beauty which I don't think I've seen but I thought it was cute. Last night James and I were going to dye some eggs together but I think I fell asleep so he did them by himself. I really don't remember what happened I just know I was extremely tired and still didn't feel the best, so I think I dozed off:) Well I fell asleep really early last night and was able to get a good night's sleep considering the night before I got no sleep, and today I woke up refreshed and feeling much, much better.

This is a really long post but there's one more part of this weekend and that's today. Today is a very special day, because not only are we celebrating the resurrection of the Savior, but it's my hubby's birthday also! Today James is 20 and officially no longer a teenager:) I can't believe how fast time has gone by, we were both 16 (James was almost 17) when we met and here we are almost 4 years later married, it's so crazy. Today we've been married for 8 months which has completely flown by I still can't believe it's been that long! So my mom's making a special dinner today for easter and my uncle's coming over, and I'm going to make "Better Than Anything Cake" also known as "Better Than Sex Cake," but I feel uncomfortable calling it that around my family, so to me it's better than anything cake! James' present this year was our little dog Bruiser that we got a few weeks ago, he also got some money from my parents and his, and my sister bought him some church shoes that he was in desperate need of. I just want James to know how much I love him and I couldn't imagine my life without him. Happy Birthday babe I love you!! I hope everyone has a great Easter weekend:)

A little update!

So James got the job that I talked about in my previous post YAY!! He's going to be working at West Valley Auto Plaza, which is right across the street from the apartment that we're hoping to move into. We're still waiting to hear from the apartment about how our credit check went, and then if everything works out we're scheduled to move in on the 15th. We're so excited and I'm thinking James was meant to get this job because when he first called them they just said to come in on Monday at 9, and the next thing you know he's calling me like five minutes after nine saying he got the job! I think he was meant to get this job and we're meant to move into these apartments because everything has happened so quickly and things just seem to be working out. Well I'll keep you posted about the apartment!!